Not My Will

 

This week's blog prompt is about the devotional that my friends and I are doing.  It is prepared by our church in Southlake. Each day, there is a song, a message and a memory verse for us to learn.  If you are interested in checking it out, here is the link.  In Jesus' Name.

SJ has asked that I share with you which day's devotional touched me the most and why.  I would have to say that Day 5, entitled "Not My Will" was the most touching thus far.  The following is an excerpt taken from the devotional online to show you more about what that day's message was about:

"God’s will is perfect. When we pray, we must be about His will, not our own. Often, we find our prayer life stuck as we pray out of our own will, our own reasoning, our own understanding and our own emotions; but if we allow God to direct our prayers, we will begin to see the power, presence and provision of God released in unimaginable ways."  Not My Will


I have always been a planner.  I love to plan what I am going to do that day, the next week, the next month, the next year, etc.  I come by it honestly - my Dad is also a planner.   For most of my childhood, it would disappoint me beyond belief if my plans didn't follow through (whether it was from me changing my mind or letting others take over)...eventually, I stopped planning (for the most part).  Over time, I got to be very passive, but still frustrated because nothing I wanted ever seem to come to be.

When I failed the Bar Exam the first time, I started praying.  I asked whether I should take it again.  God responded with a resounding yes, of course. I prayed that I would do very well on the Bar. I never heard His answer, but I failed it a second time. I asked whether I should take it again.  God responded with a resounding yes, of course.  So, I prayed that I would do what was needed to pass the Bar.  I never heard His answer, but I failed a third time. I asked whether I should take it again.  God responded with a resounding yes, of course.  So, I prayed I would do my best on the Bar.  I never heard His answer, but I failed a fourth time.  So, I prayed for God's Will to be done.  Just days later, my parents offered to pay for an expensive tutor to help me through it and I passed with flying colors.  I've been licensed for two years now.

This year, I would really like to work on praying for God's Will, not my own.  With my own prayers, I will always face adversities in trying to get it accomplished.  With God's prayers, I will always have peace.

Let Go and Let God!